Is it? or isn't it?

Now that it might be there i cannot stop thinking, is it true? is it really there? how should I know? I have just forgotten how to recognize It....It has being always a game for me, seems forever since the last time it was real...and was it really??? back then...no I do not know anylonger, I have no idea, so I am insecure, always with this wall in front of me...will he be able this time to brake that wall?...does he want to brake it for real?? Do I want him to brake it?...

Hold me!! or I will run away from you...